Coronavirus, Anxiety & Me
Quashing the stigma
Anxiety and depression have for a long time had a stigma attached to them. To realise that I suffered from anxiety and depression took a long time. In fact once I admitted to it to myself, I realised that I had struggled with it for all of my adult life. To say it out loud to people, to my loved ones, was one of the most difficult things I’ve ever had to do.
Let me just clear up a few things. It wasn’t a straight forward road. It was a long and hard road to get to the point where I knew I needed help. Where I knew maybe I wasn’t coping. And that was the the thing. I believed that I WAS ok. I thought that I could cope with anything. That I was strong. To be anything else was to be a failure. And I hated to admit that I was failing. But I was. And it’s only now that I realise that it’s ok.
To cut a long story Short, I sought help. I received help and it was going to be ok. I practice CBT on a daily basis. I have done for years now. And I am coping well.
And then along came COVID-19…
Covid-19… Coronavirus… What a surreal time this is. For all of us. We need to abide by the governments guidelines for all our sakes. I have elderly parents (they will hate me describing them as such, but they are) I am worried sick. I hope and pray that they will stay well through all of this and I can’t wait to see them again.
I have a son, whom I love more than life itself, who had started to self -isolate in another county last week (before the lock down). He’s with his girlfriend and her family so that’s a small blessing. At least he’s not alone.
And I have a business that I love. A business that I have worked hard to build up. A business that I want to survive and still be here when all of this is over.
I am hoping that we all get through this period of uncertainty, unscathed and healthy. Obviously my family’s health is of the utmost importance. But I also hope that my little business survives. I can’t imagine doing anything else. I wouldn’t know what else TO do! Currently it’s looking like I will have no income for the next few months, maybe even into the last half of the year. No one know for certain. As a self employed worker we have no income at all for the foreseeable future.
I do believe that I will get through it though. Having the mental strength to get through this is coming from my ability to practice CBT. I am in control of my anxiety.
I want you to know that if you are feeling anxious, worried, scared and a whole host of other things during this scary time, then that is absolutely fine. It is not wrong to feel that way. It’s a scary time for us all. I want you to know that I am here if you need to talk. To get things and worries out in the open. Don’t suffer in silence. Social distancing is going to put extra pressure on us so it’s important to know that people are there for you. People care about you. I care about you.
Let’s put our optimistic head on and think about how amazing it’s going to be when we can go out and meet with friends. See our family again. Celebrate your wedding day!
Please reach out if you’re feeling isolated or just want to chat 🙂